She ionizes and atomizes

Wed, 27 Sep 2006 19:56:05 GMT

Wednesday, September 27th

The best pair of $10 shoes ever.

My favorite bakelite pin (1970's).

So, I suppose this has become my "fashion journal". Mmmm... exciting.

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 01:34:23 GMT

JEALOUSY will crush my faith from the inside out

Tue, 01 Mar 2005 22:08:26 GMT

srdfgfghfg

Sat, 29 Jan 2005 03:01:54 GMT

summers spent lying on the sidewalk.
we either stayed up too late, or awoke too early.
either way, i found myself lying next to you
on the cool pavement, watching the sun rise.
we tried to capture our love on a film strip.
we tried to document our angst in a notebook.
but they were just pictures and words.
pictures and words.

Wed, 22 Dec 2004 17:47:56 GMT

i've changed my livejournal username.
it is now sidewalkmistake.</span>

add it if you want.

you looked smashing in your fourth grade picture

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 18:44:03 GMT

a brain that never stops ticking

sometimes an on-off switch would sure come in handy

a mind that's constantly cutting up and dissecting

looking for answers, committing murders along the way

is it the red wire or the blue wire?

just pick one and cut

it just doesn't matter anymore

or did it ever?

cause I could never control when the bomb would explode

oh god I love you

I mean forever
I left my body behind to break the news
looks like it's over
please remember all of the things I never got a chance to say

♥

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 20:38:14 GMT

he's crushing me. slowly, softly, delicately.
a subtle assassin of heartbreak.
a listless lover who's never felt love.
i want to be him. deadened to every sense of pain.
"inflict your wounds, killer! because i'll never feel again."
it was over before it began.
a nighttime romance
destroyed by the onslaught of the morning sun.
when all that's left are empty cigarette cartons
and a letter left bedside before the escape...
why bother to awaken to a day with no reason for waking?
i had the world in my hands.
and i let him slip away.

first thing i've written in about six months.
leave your honest opinion.
thank you.

we're so tragic, baby

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 01:53:06 GMT

officially friends only <3

Thu, 18 Nov 2004 01:36:10 GMT

The signal flares will light the way
to the scene of the accident where we'll dance
like a pile of teeth in a broken mouth
Such a sick celebration
Everyone loves a fucking tragedy
in epic proportions

Lets set our hearts at self-destruct.

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 00:31:57 GMT

hey this is giustina. i have a lot of friends 197 to be exact. i hate polina shes a fucking hooker. i hope she goes to nyc and gets raped by a homeless hobo. i'm currently reading a book called "white oleander" so far i think its good. 4 of my 197 friends are here. but they gotta leave soon. i fucking hate asians (haha) polina did bring a camera but mine so much better .. bc its been to france. polina says she wishes she was friends with bonnie. she also sang mambo no 5 .. i wanted to shoot myself in the face bc she was soo fucking bad. hah i'm so much cooler than her. with my 197 frineds. I LOVE TEA!!! so much. the kid thats over my house is fucking retarted ... he listens to pussy music .. he doesnt deseve to die .. thats decided by god. he so doesnt deserve god. <<<i wish you were here .. you were so fucking right. man seriously .. um that time was great. i wish that happend again. nothing sexual. um you know im paranoid. um this is grat.>>> i was my fucking sweatshirt ... you havnt given it back yet. i fucking wanna rip your head off and shit down your neck. nvm i thought it was someone else. i love ikea. love it. bunch of pictures for sure. i love taking pictures. mostly of polina bc i'm secretly inlove with her. but i think she knows. i wrote much . so bye .. see younever

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 18:17:31 GMT

friends only.

comment to be added.

<|3

Mon, 05 Apr 2004 20:16:50 GMT

this is the soundtrack 
to saying goodbye 
we are making out 
with desperate days 
so turn the volume up high 
(You love it) 
god bless repeat - play nights 
heartbreaks and fights 
and all the pretty kids 
with the tired tired eyes 
sitting out parties 
to be with your headphones 
reciting your last words 
and writing your last notes 
this is the soundtrack 
to saying goodbye 
for feeling cold like December 
in the middle of July (so fuck it) 
we are dead flowers 
and pocket change - me 
forcing smiles - so tragic baby 
we are the depressed 
future heartbreakers 
and this is how we sound 
sometimes I just want to fade away 
with no goodbyes - or anything 
i slept right through the yesterdays 
cause everybody was in my way 
this is the soundtrack 
to saying goodbye 
we are dropping coins 
into dead payphones 
to hear the sound of our voice 
just to know we're alone 
and it's beyond me 
why people couldn't see 
we were the true meaning of beauty 
hhumming "love" 
with stiches in our hands 
so young, I broke a wall with my hand 
that broke a heart with a pen 
so young, I was singing 
"Love" in my head 
and if you know what I know 
then you know that love is dead 
we were born just to fade away 
with no goodbyes - or anything 
we slept right through the yesterdays 
cause everybody was in our way 
goodbye my loves 
you can have my heart 
this is volume three of our tragedy

<|3

Tue, 30 Mar 2004 02:24:08 GMT

leave me a comment about anything
and make it anonymous

<3 hoorah for communities!

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 15:42:38 GMT

there's nothing left to do but sleep

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 01:24:34 GMT

so this is what nothing feels like...

empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty empty

i almost forgot
i almost forgot you

i can't even fictionalize this anymore... it's a waste of words

<|3

you make me feel like i am home again

Wed, 24 Mar 2004 01:10:14 GMT

i lost my pearl necklace
the perdy one from Salvy
so i went back to see if they had any similar ones
but they didn't

loads of disappointment <|3

i started listening to No Knife because marty told me to (and i basically listen to everything marty says)... and they're acctually really good. hmm, so check that shizzy out.

i wish my digital camera would be fixed so i could post pictures from the musical.... there are some gorgeous ones of me and adam having bum sex.
plus i hung adam up on the coat rack
there is also a really nice picture of me with "something about mary" hair. thanks to mike mcmanus.
and also... one of me and davis looking pretty damn good.

now that i've described the pictures, i don't really need to post them.

okay. i'm tired. i'll probably go to bed soon.

naked lunch

Sat, 20 Mar 2004 17:05:28 GMT

she seized a safety pin caked with blood and rust, gouged a great hole in her leg which seemed to hang open like an obscene, festering mouth waiting for unspeakable congress with a dropper which she now plunged out of sight into the gaping wound. but her hideous galvanized need (hunger of insects in dry places) has broken the dropper off deep in the flesh of her ravaged thigh (looking rather like a poster on soil erosion.) but what does she care? she does not even bother to remove the splintered glass, looking down at her bloody haunch with the cold blank eyes of a meat trader. what should she care for the atom bomb, bed bugs, the cancer rent, Friendly Finance waiting to repossess her delinquent flesh... sweet dreams, Pantopon Rose.

-burroughs

"it's cold got long walk home come over"

Wed, 17 Mar 2004 22:21:12 GMT

i _____ giustina.
giustina is ____.
if i were alone in a room with giustina, i would _____.
i think giustina should _____.
giustina needs _____.
i want to _____ giustina.
giustina reminds me of _____.
without giustina _____.
my memories of giustina are _____.
giustina can be _____.
worst thing about giustina is _____.
best thing about giustina is _____.
i am _____ with giustina.

..fill it out mother fuckers.... extra points for creativity! ;-)

you're what makes new england so great

in other exciting news.
it's snowing.
oh how i DESPISE snow.

i just want to surf. why is that so hard?

i guess it only felt like spring... a mistake often made i suppose.
and i guess... it only felt like love

oh well, such is life <|3

i miss drinking red wine. [the stains on my sheets.]
i miss touching you. [the stains on my sheets]

one day you'll discover... that i was good enough

you break my heart to pieces

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 22:11:52 GMT

sleep with all the lights on.
you're not so happy.
you're not secure.
you're dying to look cute in your blue jeans,
but you're plastic just like everyone.
you're just like everyone.
and that face you paint is pressed
impressing most of us as permanent
and i'd like to see you undone.

it's cool to take these chances.
it's cool to fake romances
and grow up fast.

i hate you

Tue, 16 Mar 2004 20:09:39 GMT

him:i'm lookin' at your face and I just wanna smash it. i just wanna fuckin' smash it with a sledgehammer and squeeze it. you're so pretty.

her:i want to chew your face, and i want to scoop out your eyes and i want to eat them and chew them and suck on them.

.... <|3 ....

i'll pretend that this is real
because this is what i like best

in the end, this is what i get? no feelings. just touching.
i won't ask questions. i'll keep my mouth shut.
because i'd rather have this. than nothing at all.

"liar liar" and his wooden body floated away... it just drifted away

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 23:53:37 GMT

there's nothing i hate more than a liar.
someone who can sit there and lie to my face
and then talk about me behind my back

you think i dont know what you say??

and your lies... are so outrageously horrible.
it's ridiculous. do you think i'm an idiot??
you think i believe this?

if only i had the guts to confront you
but i don't...because i'd end up with a sad sob story
and an apology that means nothing

so instead i'll keep my distance
and hope this friendship fades away

i won't let you bring me down

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 16:47:29 GMT

so my very eventful weekend
became very uneventful

i ended up eating sushi on thursday
a few new clothes on friday
and the rest of the weekend
was spent watching
Sex and the City
by myself

independence <3

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 00:58:51 GMT

my foot is so itchy

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 01:23:43 GMT

yeah... friends only.

comment and i'll add you <3

Thu, 04 Mar 2004 03:34:02 GMT

all these feelings make me wanna esplode. roar. roar. roar.

me so angry.